September 29, 2010

If I Die Young

I guess every now and then I should have a post that doesn’t have any thing to do with sports or wear I’m trying to be funny.
I assumed after getting married that I would really be getting over Larianns death. I had hoped that I would mean I wouldn’t be sad about her being gone any more and while I am so much happier then I have been in a very long time I still find myself missing her at times, though definitely not as much as I used to.
One of those times happened a few weeks ago while I was driving into work at the church. I heard this song on the radio.

I actually started crying while I was driving. I guess I still miss her more then I thought I did.
I do know that Lucy and I will see her again and I am so grateful for that knowledge, though it still hurts some times to think that she is gone. I am also very grateful to have Ariane in my life now, she has made me happy again.


Dutch John Guymon said...


I have never had to experience the kind of grief that you have had to feel, but I know that grief can take along time to get through. There were times with me that I thought I was over it and then a trigger happened. Much like this song did for you and it reopened that hole! Just keep being happy with Lucy and Ariane and you will continue to get through this! I am sorry that you have had to feel such sadness, but I know that you have been blessed with an incredible wife who will be there for you. You also have a wonderful family (me included :) ) who love you and would do anything to help you! Keep on smiling! And if that doesn't help, then maybe it is time to come to my part of heaven and just relax!!

Hali said...

Scott, this was very sweet to hear you express this for us to read. You are such a strong person and will get through this one day at a time. Until then know that as friends we are here and will always bring you pie to help the hard days!!!

The Bentley Family and Aussiemuminthekitchen said...

I'm so sorry Scott. It's amazing how music can bring memories and emotions to the surface. I am so glad that you feel happier now with Arianne. I don't know her, but I have heard some neat things about her. I too miss Lariann and find myself thinking of her from time to time. In fact I can't really drive past our old apartments without thinking of you both. You are forever in our thoughts and prayers. Much love Brad and Nat.

Scarlet said...

I recently obtained a new U2 song, and I ached so bad to share it with Lari. I can't listen to it now because that's what I think when I hear it. Kinda sucks.
Anyway. We love you, and one day it wont hurt so much.

Lindsay said...

I'm so glad that you and Lucy have Ariane in your lives. Even though I've only met her at wedding receptions, I know you guys are lucky! With that being said, it happens to me too. I'll see a picture or something that reminds me of something fun we did and it hurts. Thank goodness for the temple!

Melanie said...

I love you, Scott. I sort of know how you feel. You know how much I looked up to and admired Lariann. There's little things that will remind me of her everywhere. I hope I will get to see her again someday. She was one of the most amazing women I ever knew.